Donuts. Krispy Kreme donuts. That's what I wanted. Who ever heard of a southern
town, without a Krispy Kreme? It was early on a week-day morning, and I had been
over an hour early for an appointment, an odd twist of fate, that left me with
nothing to do, except feel my stomach growl. I was vaguely familiar with the
little city, nestled into the mountains, but I was hungry, and there wasn't a
single donut shop around. I settled for a Danish at a local burger place, along
with a big cup of black coffee. The girl smiled at me, as she handed me the
Danish and coffee.
"Are you new in town?" She asked. "Well, yes and no." I answered. "I have to
wait for an appointment, and this is the closest I could come to a donut shop."
She laughed, as she assured me that the Danish was about as close as I would
ever get to a donut, in her town. I smiled back, as I grabbed a newspaper and
headed to the back, away from the "smoking" section.
I barely glanced at the headlines, as I bit into the Danish, wishing it were a
donut. It was a time of reflection for me. I was miserable. I had always been a
spiritual person, but I had found that I could no longer pray. It had been years
since I had stepped into a church, and, frankly, if there was a God, why was He
not answering me? I felt as though I was going out of my mind.
About that time, I noticed a man sitting just inside the non-smoking section,
reading a book, and busily scribbling notes. He was about seventy-something.
Quite handsome. An African-American gentleman, with beautiful white hair. He
called out greetings to anyone who spoke to him, and all the young black men
treated him with quiet dignity. He seemed to be related to everyone in town.
In between greetings, he went back to his book and his notes, and he continued
to scribble. I noticed that he seemed comfortable in his own skin, and he read
the book, as though he were reading letters from an old friend. Every once in
awhile, he would read a phrase, and he would smile. It must be a diary, I
thought. Perhaps it was the writings of some beloved person in his life. Without
a word, he conveyed a sense of gentleness. The expression in his face was like
nothing I had ever seen. I longed for that peace. I needed that peace!
Lord, why do I not have that peace?" The longing in my heart was so tangible, it
cut like a knife. I was just captivated by this man. He was well, beautiful, as
though angels surrounded him. He continued with his reading, writing, and his
greetings.
"You seem to know everybody," I said. He looked up and he smiled at me. His dark
eyes, behind his round glasses, were kind.
"No," he said. "I've never been here before."
"Really? People you don't know say 'hello' to you?"
"Sometimes." He smiled, and he went back to his reading.
There was something about that book. What was that book? I tried not to stare,
but peripherally, I never took my eyes off of him. He continued to pour over the
words in the book, and, finally, he moved. He turned to reach for something, and
the title of the book
became visible. THE HOLY BIBLE! The longings in my soul cried out, so that I
thought I would burst into tears. A sob caught in my throat. What was the power
that grasped me through those three words? THE HOLY BIBLE.
I sat there for what seemed like forever, captured by a man that exuded holiness
from every pore. I was really familiar with phonies, and this man was "for
real." You could see it on the faces of everyone who walked within ten feet of
him. A kind of hush stole through the little burger joint, and I was enthralled.
I realized that this man was totally comfortable with his God. This man was
involved in a relationship! And I wanted what he had! But I hadn't the slightest
idea how to get it!
It was time to go, or I would be late for my appointment. I stood and had an
incredible impulse to walk over to him. I did, and I thanked him for just
sitting there, reading the Bible, as though he were reading letters from a
friend. My eyes filled with tears. My voice broke, as I tried to convey the
power that was released in his simple, unconscious relationship. He took my
hand, and we held hands, for what seemed like an eternity. One confused white
woman, and one kind, elderly black man. I felt an unearthly love for that man,
but I just couldn't speak.
I listened, as I held his hand, and he told me about his aunt, who was "elderly"
and very ill. He was from Ohio, and had just traveled down to check on her. She
was being hospitalized, and he was only in the burger place, waiting for her to
be settled into her room. I could feel his goodness steal through me, and I
wanted to do all sorts of things. I wanted to weep, just break out into
uncontrollable sobs and tell him all about my life. More than anything, I wanted
to know who gave him his incredible peace, but I never uttered a word. He let go
of my hand, and we said farewell.
Before I left, however, he gave me some pamphlets, and he said, "Whenever you
are ready to have your questions answered," as though he read my thoughts, "read
these. In the meantime, I'll be praying for you." I wanted to throw my arms
around him, but I just said "thank you," and I left.
It was a long time before I began my journey to an understanding of God, and I
lost those pamphlets somewhere along the way. In the years since that brief
encounter, I've come to experience that peace "that passes all understanding,"
and the God who gives it. So thank you my friend, my angel. You changed my life,
without a word.
Jaye Lewis Jlewis@smyth.net
Jaye Lewis is a born again Christian and award winning writer, who looks at life
from a unique perspective. Jaye is the author of the book, Entertaining Angels,
which celebrates the angels that she has met in her life-journey. Jaye lives
with her family in the Appalachian Mountains of Virginia, USA, and she writes
every day.
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