I can remember, when I was a teenager, falling on my knees in our family kitchen
and crying uncontrollably. My mother had just been taken away by the paramedics
to the asylum again, after another terrifying outbreak of her schizophrenic
disorder. As usual, she had not been taking her medication which, after four or
five days, resulted in a frenzied attack on her family. This latest violent
outburst was the last straw for me, and I just fell apart in front of my Dad and
siblings. I cried out to God, time and time again, “Why are You doing this to
us? Why are You allowing this to happen?” I was inconsolable and hated my life.
Emotional pain is very hard to carry, especially when you are young and
inexperienced as far as suffering goes. It took me years to cope with my mum’s
mental illness and there are still some moments when I wonder how all our family
survived. To me, it involved the grace of God, who heard the troubles of my
heart and freed me from my anguish. I still carry the emotional scars inside,
but with God’s great patience and unyielding love, I have managed not only to
survive, but also to find healing.
It may be the case that as you are reading this devotional, you are also
experiencing some turmoil, trouble and tribulation that is wounding your soul or
breaking your heart. Like the psalmist of old, cry out to God and tell Him how
you really feel. Don’t be afraid to shout, rage, or weep. He’s big enough to
take all of the punches we can throw at Him. He’s also merciful enough to give
us the grace that we desperately need to overcome these issues.
Prayer: Lord God, sometimes our lives are filled with sorrow and over-powered
with pain. Some of our experiences can damage our bodies, minds, hearts, and
souls. Be near to us when we are lonely and afflicted, agitated and rebellious.
Embrace us with Your love and heal us with Your grace. In Jesus’ Name, we pray.
Amen.
John Stuart traqair@aol.com
Knoxville, Tennessee, USA
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